what I truly wish for.

Today's #reverb12 prompt asks what I truly wish for. It was inspired by Cam from Curlypops.. The prompt asks that I

"Imagine a scenario where you only had one year left to live. What is one thing that you really wish to do that you just haven't had the chance to accomplish yet?

 What steps could you take (however small) to ensure that you accomplish this thing in 2013?"

A while ago I sat and reflected upon the things in my life that are important to me. The things that I love. The things I would truly regret not completing if I died tomorrow. For me this is not a very difficult question because I am often reflecting upon my life and how to make it better, this is something I learned to do in my late teens. But acting upon those things are generally another story. I can be incredibly nervous around people when I first meet them which tends to make the things that I want to complete very difficult.

There were a number of things that I wanted to complete when I wrote that list a while ago (actually it was around this time last year). I wanted to be happier in my own skin, to be more confident of who I am and to treat each day as a gift that is to be treasured. I also wanted to go back to university and complete my teaching degree so that I could have a rewarding career.  These are things that I have worked on this year, things that I have taken steps towards completing. 

The one thing that was on my list that I have not taken steps towards, the one thing that I TRULY wish for, is to play music again. 

For those who don't know, I love music. Singing and playing my guitar is my true happy place and although I play in my lounge room, I desperately yearn to sing in a band again. But I simply do not know where to start. When I sing, when I make music, it is the only time in my life that I am not nervous. 

I don't know what steps I would take to make my music dreams happen. I dream of recording a demo here at home (we have all the equipment) and attempting to get some gigs. I dream of writing more and putting my heart into song. 

I will start by embedding a video of me singing a song I wrote 5 1/2 years ago. Something that terrifies me, I am not sure why. The sound and video are slightly out of sync and I think (maybe) my guitar might be a little out of tune. I play this song slightly differently now (maybe because I play guitar better now), I really should re-record it, but you get the idea.

What is it that YOU truly wish for?